Everything takes time, but time doesn't take everything.
Well, you guessed it. Another airplane, another cold brew, and another middle seat. Potentially should update this in my dating profiles to warn off wandering men. But hey, gotta push the mystery always. Realistically I have extreme news.
"I’m starting to strongly dread airports a lot less."
I know, I am shook as well. I mean, I'm still going to continue complaining and roasting everyone/everything purely for my entertainment, but I am growing up. I also know the reasoning for this. I have adapted my mindset. I see airports differently because I see myself differently. I see people differently. Most importantly, I see my talent differently. It may be because I turned 25 and still have yet to change my identity. "This is so sad, Alexa play Despacito." Whatever that means, but it’s definitely fitting for my continued comedy/horror tale.
Top 25 Moments of 24
- Loving dance again ♡
- Building Danceplex to be our beautiful home #danceplexfam
- Actually replying to messages
- Balance on my burrito intake
- The Courses ♡
- Improvement in my cleaning skills (I even own my own Lysol wipes)
- Reconnecting with my most cherished dance students *tear*
- NASHVILLE, TENNESEE
- Paid all my bills (Without selling my purses)
- Yogi life
- Thinking clearly and making the best decisions selfishly without guilt
- The Dance Affair
- More water, less alcohol (Still a lot buttttttt but I'm working on it)
- Spending everyday (No exaggeration) with my BFFL Aly Schmitt
- Auditioning for The Bachelor (Not sarcasm, I did this)
- Mentoring/influencing/inspiring choreographers to build their careers
- I feel nicer
- I also feel smarter
- Delicate (Kaitlyn Conley)
- WOD with Sami/Cami ♡
- Being vulnerable
- Living alone and not being lonely
- Concerts with Addy
- Addy finally being an adult & A BOSS PROFESSIONAL s/o Selena Gomez ♡
- Learning and breathing *without giving up*
As simplistic as some of these highlights are, they are so not simple to this ridiculous, "Alexa Moffett Lifestyle."
Alexa Moffett Lifestyle
I have a weird "luck" of life normally working out in a positive outcome. It's an extreme blessing when life gives you lemons. But I constantly crave real imperfection and mistakes. Why would someone even feel this way? Well, I unintentionally lived a "perfect life" with everything a girl could dream up by the naive age of 20. And I was drowning. Mentally, physically, emotionally, I had so many "things" with so much nothing inside. So I changed.
The Actual Current:
"Learn to say no without explaining yourself."
One of the phrases I get caught up on daily. I care for people, a lot. I listen and remember, everything. I give and give and give, not because I necessarily have too much, but because it makes me feel relief. But there's just sometimes, in the most positive way, you give too much. Commitment, energy, feelings, life.
Do I know how I'm going to improve on this, yes. Is it going to challenge me everyday for forever, absolutely. In the meanwhile, I will remind myself saying no is human. (Alexa Moffett is a human.)
"This woman is no good they tell me. She is all the things that make the fire."
Reminds me of why I'm single. Also my constant prominent characteristics of being a Leo.
The funny thing about fire is that everyone is afraid of it. They see fire and run. Fire is associated with fear. That fire will only burn you. I mean, of course who hasn't experienced a burn by a flame? But after, you still go back for more, possibly out of curiosity, maybe of regret, regardless of the scenario. It's basically a love/hate relationship.
I was once told by a Starbucks lover that my blog was harshly vulnerable. Honestly, I thought a lot about this during my countless hours of waiting until happy hour, and my conclusion is that it is. But at the same time while writing this eventfully honest blog, I have grown through and out of my "black hole" funk I was in for so long. And it saved me. It was my fire. So although I may be an extreme realist, that actually dreams of consequences and failure, I see fire as my drive.
AM DANCE LYFE
Once upon a time, I was choreographing and rehearsing 83 12 & under soloists weekly. I was considered a very advanced/sought after competitive dance teacher specifically for my dancers unrealistically incredible performances. I am very humble and you can ask anyone apart of this journey how many hours we spent not only training, but breathing and striving for continuous excellence.
I stopped hosting a team because of the never ending cycle of entitlement and the actual anxiety of me not being able to do everything. After so many years of scouting and creating talent, I was genuinely too unhappy and overwhelmed to live the same life on repeat. It’s absolutely sad for all the talented dancers I would love to mentor/train but someday I won’t be 25 and maybe/most likely will revisit the comedy/horror.
"You see, I was trying to make people better people."
When you hire a professional, you expect professional work. I honestly understand it. I am a professional. I have grown up in this industry and made my fair share of mistakes. Still am everyday. What I’m reminding everyone is the 24 hour rule. Not just in our careers, but to ourselves. 24 hours to breathe. To learn. To ultimately make your life a little less negative flames and burn for the things that really matter.
The latest and greatest Alexa is proud to live and share these moments with you all. Through my real life and my dance lifestyle, I will continue to push for vulnerability. Happiest when I'm dancing. These are the best days of our lives. #runningawaytoeurope #happypassport #loveyouallsm
